I mean dark as in “unknown”, which translates to death.
I was talking about some religions today and about how many religions believe in reincarnation/cycles/survival of the soul. Yeah, pretty deep stuff.
Anyway, one thing no one questions is death…obviously.
I don’t like talking about death. Not because it’s sad to see others die (which it obviously is, but that’s not what I’m getting at), but because I’m terrified. Yeah, the process of dying (I mean really dying - few months/years max, not the idea “you’re dying from the moment you’re born) is pretty scary, but what comes after it.
I don’t know, I’ve just been reflecting upon this a lot lately, and my existence. I mean, I don’t know if I could ever be as grateful for anything other than my consciousness (well, you can count health in there too). I’ve always taken these things for granted, and I seem to forget their importance on a daily basis.
How can I come to terms with “nothing”? What is this nothing? I can’t quite wrap my head around the imminent nothingness. I mean, the thought of it makes me cry.
Yes, I’ll probably come to terms with this later in my life, once I’ve experienced many different things and am realizing the inevitability. But then again, this can happen AT ANY TIME. But, we aren’t supposed to live our lives in fear because that defeats the purpose.
I know I sound like a baby, but I don’t want to lose what I have. I don’t want to lose my body and consciousness, and whatever they allow me to do. I don’t know anything else other than that…how can I be comforted by the loss of the only things I really know?! How can I be okay with the unknown?
Life is so precious. So fragile. One mistake and it’s done. Kaput.
Mind blowing. And tear jerking. And a bunch of emotions I don’t think I’ll ever be able to express. Trust me, I can bring a whole new meaning to distraught.
found some online vids
dang, that stuff is hard! i always thought I was flexible… ya know, I can kick high, do all of the splits, bridge etc
BUT DAMN
i wanna be a yoga teacher
chroniclesofness:
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Zwow # 2
3 rounds of
what did she call them, manovers? basically row in pushup (each arm), stand up, press up, back down and pushups… 5
10 “breakdance” pushups
20 burpees + hop over
25 competition sit ups
finished at about 18 minutes…
oh, and since i didn’t have time to eat a proper breakfast this morning/there was no fruit to quickly grab (can’t really stomach salads in the morning), i literally had a small wedge of cheese…wow
10 min AMRAP:
- 10 tricep pushups
- 10 upright rows
- 10 burpees
- 10 leg lifts
4 minutes interval rope
B - 3 scrambled eggs with spinach, glass of orange juice (stuffy… wanted the vitamin C nummyness)
L - handful roasted cashews, 1.5 cups mixed berries, 2 small kale rolls (ground beef with some rice - oops- wrapped in kale and “roasted”)
D - few bites kale rolls with few bites mashed potatoes
joneseyshore:
finished first in my astrophysics class woooot!!
he’s my fave
This one definitely had me huffing and puffing…
4 min 20/10 skipping
“Barbara”
5 rounds for time
20 pullups (replaced with 12.5 weight dumbell curls, each arm)
30 pushups
40 situps (oblique + crunches on stability ball)
50 squats (added 10 pound weight)
4 min 20/10 skipping
+ random walks
http://www.dansvillefitnessclub.com/paleo/paleo-meal-plan.pdf
Crossfit/ZWOW workout EVERYDAY
CHECK THIS OUT Y’ALL:
http://www.paradisocrossfit.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Comprehensive-Bodyweight-Workout-List-v1.5.pdf
Crap load of crossfit workouts, bodyweight!
Granted, you need a pullup bar, but until I convince my dad to install ours, i’ll probably switch it with either arm stuffs (curls, rows) or abs.
Days that I’m really really sick? Nothing.
Days that I’m really busy? Aim for a 4 minute intense tabata and as much walking as I can get it.
Oh and Superhuman 50 challenge is starting tomorrow, which means paleo/primal for 50 days!!
They allow 1-2 cheat meals per week to keep you on track… it accounts for social outings, no satisfying “bad” cravings.
They even allow a little bit of organic, full fat dairy! Yay for cream in my coffee :)
Who’s up for it?
Todays Workout:
1 mile run (probably 5.5)
100 pullups (subbed for leglifts)
200 pushups
300 squats
1 mile run
B - hamburger patty, mustard, one cevapcic, italian blend greens with balsamic vinegar
L - a few asian chicken bites, few fried calamari/shrimp, 1 breast harissa chicken (best thing in the world omg), green beans, baby carrots
D - apple
Happy Mother’s Day!
- ZWOW # 16
- 5 minute interval jump rope
- 10 min. interval weights
treadmill walking while watching Game of Thrones (hopefully)
random walks outside
First time at Cora’s today! Man oh man, are they serious about breakfast!
B - Theo Omelette (carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, spinach, tomato, some other veggies with eggs and swiss cheese melted on top)
nibbled on some multigrain crust
L - 1/2 sausage (WAYYY to salty)
hamburger patty
italian blend greens with evoo and balsamic, tomatoes
2 tbsp sour cream
small slice of toasted bread
D - apple, coffee with milk
ubergirls:
Zuzana Light
just another idol ya know
disasterwithin:
your existence is offensive → jennifer lawrence
“My voice is a combination of Fergie and Jesus.”
love her.